"When it's over, I want to say: all my life
I was a bride married to amazement."
Those are lines from the Mary Oliver poem, "When Death
Comes," which is a favorite of mine. I'm thinking of her because my
children and mother and I went to hear her read last week, along with 2000
other amazed people, everyone with their souls flung open. Well, make that
1999. Birdy was too busy accidentally dropping her after-dinner mints on the
floor and fretting over them to get her soul flung open. "I did not listen
to one single word!" she boasted into the glorious night on the way back
to the car. But my mum and I? Souls flung open. Ben and his friend Ava? Souls
flung open. Ava's mother and I actually had to lean over all the children to
hold hands and cry, so filled were we with our love for the world.
These lines, for instance, from the poem "Why I Wake
Early":
"Watch, now, how I start the day
in happiness, in kindness."
Or these, from "The Summer Day," another favorite:
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?"
And what I plan to do with my one wild and precious life is
nag my children over bowls of vegetable soup.
See, the problem with Mary Oliver is that you are expanded
by her loveliness and love, her open heart and clarity. And when you contract
again, around your own smallness? It is just about the worst thing--more
humbling than if you'd just been your usual mix of petty and grateful to begin
with. I don't know how to explain it. I guess it's just life, really--how you
can boil up a huge pot of vegetable soup and feel, in your bones, your love for
your children, your family, your life. You are making them this good and
beautiful food! You are nourishing their bodies and souls! You are loving this
world that grows this lovely food that you feed your lovely children! The soup
cooks and exhales into your kitchen the steam of righteousness.
And then, well, the light is fading, and you are hoping to
get some photos taken of the soup. And you don't know how to use your flash
without making it look as if the bowl of soup is Brittany Spears climbing out
of a limo into the lights of the paparazzi. And you call and call the kids, but
they're busy with a game they're playing, cutting pandas out of paper, those
bad kids. And then you speak sharply to them and they come to the table with
their heads hung low, and they spoon up their soup while you nag them some more
from behind the clicking shutter of your own self-importance: "When I call
you to the table. . . " And the bucolic love-the-world soup turns into
dinner at the gulag.
It takes only the most momentary lapse in kindness, doesn't
it? To snuff the glow from your children's eyes? It is devastating, the power
we have as parents. I vow, again, kindness only, to let the grace of them illuminate
me and dispel the shadows of pettiness.
You know, and a really good bowl of soup (hello, segue!). I
really meant to write about the soup itself, which is less of a recipe than a
formula. And the formula is this: a beany something + a starchy something + a
tomato something + loads of random veggies + broth. You begin sautéing whatever
onion/garlic type thing you're going to use, and then you prep the veggies one
at a time and add them to the pot and stir them as they're done. This is the
method from an old Marcella Hazan minstrone recipe, and it's an economical use
of your time, and also a great way to get lots of flavor into the soup, since
everything gets to sauté for a nice long time. You can use any veggies here--I
had tons of odds and ends leftover from our farm share and various cooking
projects, but you could use just 2 or 3 different veggies, or dozens of them.
Honestly. If I'd had celery I would have added it; if I had it to over, I would
have nixed the sweet potato, which was a bit off-putting in its sweetish orange
disintegration.
But the formula is very open to adaptation: the beany thing
can be any kind of canned beans or chick peas, or else a large handful of
lentils. The starchy thing can be barley or rice or pastina or Israeli couscous
(which I used here), so long as you add enough liquid with it that as it cooks
it doesn't sponge up every last drop of broth from the soup. And the tomato
product could be a few tablespoons of paste or a cup of sauce or some chopped
fresh or canned tomatoes; I used the sauce that had been delivered with our
buffalo chicken calzone a few nights earlier. Seriously. And the broth is
optional, but I always think of that one quart of broth as my gift to the soup;
if it needs more liquid after that, it gets only water. You could add herbs if
you like (though I usually don't) and you could garnish it with parmesan or
croutons in addition to the olive oil. But mostly you just need a drawer full
of aimless veggies and an hour and a half and an open heart. You need to
start--and end--your soup in happiness, in kindness.
The Soup of 1000
Vegetables
Please note that this is not a real recipe as much as a
description of how I happened to make this particular pot of soup. "I'm
worried that your readers are going to go to the supermarket like those
ingredients are a shopping list," Michael fretted. But you're not, right?
Because you get that I just used what I already had. Right?
3 tablespoons olive oil
1 bunch leeks, including their greens, halved, washed well,
and sliced thin
1/2 onion, diced
3/4 shallot, diced
Kosher salt
1 clove of garlic, chopped
2 carrots, diced
1 sweet potato, peeled and cubed
2 1/2 zucchini, diced
1/4 of a large green cabbage, slivered
1 handful of green beans, sliced into 1-inch pieces
2 potatoes, unpeeled and diced
1 kohlrabi, peeled and diced
1 beet, peeled and dived
A few leaves of kale, center ribs removed, stacked and
rolled up and finely sliced
1 cup tomato sauce
1 quart chicken or vegetable broth
4 cups water, divided use
1/2 cup Israeli couscous
1 14-ounce can Great Northern beans, with their liquid
1 tablespoon balsamic vinegar
More olive oil
In a very large soup pot or Dutch oven, heat the oil over
medium-low heat and sauté the leeks, onion and shallot with 1 teaspoon of the
kosher salt, stirring occasionally, while you start preparing the other
vegetables. When the leeks and onions are wilted and translucent, around 5
minutes, begin adding the other vegetables as they're prepped, starting with
the garlic, then adding them in vaguely the order listed, or else in some other
order of your choosing, until they've all had a chance to be sautéed in the
pot.
Now add the tomato sauce and the chicken broth, along with 2
cups of the water, raise the heat to high and bring the pot to a boil, then
lower the heat to low, cover the pot with the lid just barely ajar, and cook
the soup, stirring occasionally, for 1 hour.
Taste the soup, and add salt as needed, then add the
remaining 2 cups of water, bring it to a vigorous boil, and stir in the
couscous and the beans with their liquid and the vinegar. Cook another 20
minutes or so, until the pasta is tender. Serve, topping each bowlful with an
additional spoonful of olive oil.
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